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Thursday, February 5, 2009,6:46 AM
i hate today somehow
YAY!!!!!!!!! finish all presentation.. was super nervous.. coz i didnt really prepare myself... and i slpt at 4... heng qns was quit eeasy to handle for me..
played at the comp lab.. like siao char bor.. quite funny la... lol..
no mood to celebrate..... which i plan to...
FUCK LA!!!!!!!!!! play viwawa till quarel with my father coz he kip nagging and direct me on how to play.. while i play.. disturb my playing tactic thn ask me do wrong moves... keep losing!!! end up i shout at him for being vry noisy.. he treat it as real one.. and FLARE UP..
seriously think he is getting old.. getting cuter lo... small things also angry.. and reali angry...
haiz... FUCK LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
k.. i understand how u feel.. i know its my fault as a daughter to even shout at u... so near... if i were in ur shoes.. i sure slap... u're a gd father becoz u tolerated that urge to slap me...
u have been stressed up by the fuck up life of urs as u hv elaborated..
JUST MY LUCK
n he said " i don think u can cool me down "
in addition with.. i know wads real n wads not...
TOTALLY spoil my WHOLE day...
Im super sad.. vry sad ultra sad... until my face is reali > -.-
U know wad i hate most.. to cause any of my family members to be angry or sad..
ouch.. ouch ouch.......
i don even hv e strength to smile..
sorry dad..
wonder how long will this peace out.. ur last sentence was damn scary
" don make me turn into a mad man!!!"
it reali shows me how much u have endure for this family this period of time..
sorry i couldnt be a shoulder.. instead i became a burden..
sorry im too tired to be ur support n i jus need to collapse somehow..
sorry for my insensibility..
sorry for all these sorries which means nothing...
Im still nt grown up..
to sum up...
both of us got over smth kinda stupid.. that the emotion that took over at that second has develop into smth big which involves alot of other thinkings..
you should be- mummy, me, money and life..
me- friends, relationship, studies, family..
this las 2 months is reali a hit.. vry tedious n tiring.. i survived so far.. struggled hard n perservere... and now.. all e tolerance.. broke down.. always wanted to be the strong one.. n hate to " break down".. its tough but i know i can do it.. keep evolving!!! hahahaahaa
sorry papa... i seems to neglect the reason why u wanted to talk so much n be involve in my game.. because u jus want us to have fun tgt... sorry for spoiling that.. T.T