thinkin about u and e past.. while sharing with a friend...
tears jus flow down though i try so hard to control..
i ask someone...
and he said
if u r nt prt of his happiness.. hope he's happy.. is u cant do that.. i m sure that is nt love.. jus desire n selfishness
i felt vry insulted...
but i think... is it bcoz i bu gan xin??
i also duno alrdy..
i jus felt that im losing u... evn as a friend.. there seems to be a line in between us... its nt natural... mayb i need more time... but all these are excuses...
i need to set my heart freee
i mus believe without me ... u are happier and could find someone who give u more happiness...
,7:52 AM
OFF DAY
Yea!! today no sch.... wanted to make my IC in the morning but woke up late... and went to do it in the afternoon... didnt know that today is the last chance to practice for SSM... super angry la..... some pple didnt call me lo... neh mind...
gt my IC done... e photo is vry ugly k!!! so pek cek...
thn justin wong randomly sms me... for dinner..
OF COZ HE TREAT LO!! HEHEE :D
wanted to eat at ken house ramen.. dont reali know e names... but gt ken house n ramen... hahahah at orchard plaze... we reach at 550... but they strt at 6.. then STUPID justin...
say he wana eat sushi!!!!!!
thn stil say anything when i ask him wad he wants..
thn we walk to far east lo................
there is this restaurant on the top level... watasabi tei
e shop is damn small..........
therefore e queue is damn long.....
i waited for an hour k!!!!!!!!!!
KANASAI made ur highness stand so long!!!!
of coz he treat liao lo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the chef was rather scary... he has an aura that i scared he suddenly bankai... throw sasshimi at me then i no time open my mouth all of it will go to waste... k rubbish..
the service is nt gd la... can see.. e plates like jus drop infront of u can liao... e water splash on u also nvm one.. u cannot take order separately.. e aunty will get angry...
haahaha i wanted a chawamushi after meal.. dun dare to order.. nt i don dare la.. is justin say don wan.. coz later e aunty will scold.....
but the food is good... ambience actuali should be nice... but duno why... evrybody seems to be vry quiet... don dare to talk...
because of the chef aura??? ahahaha
the salmon sushi is so damn worthwhile!!!!! cheap is NICE!!!
ppple go try la!!
WONG JIA XIAN IS SUCH A PEST K!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he is so damn irritating... i cant stop punchin or slapping his arm... ARGH!!! OLD MAN!!!
funny and irritating...... nt scared i bankai..
almos bankai at taka when he said " duno why issac likes u"
bloody shit la... i was quite pek cek with issac alrdy lor... thn he says that... CB!! hahahahaaha
k i abit extreme... actuali its nth la... but then i don like pple to talk about me n issac... alrdy................ yea
he also doesnt seem vry friendly to me...
im tryin to be friendly friend leh.. but he seems to jus treat me as an acquitance
Tuesday, May 27, 2008,2:08 AM
In my own world
Im very much in my own world today...
went to sch then found out its a conbine SHISEIDO work shop for 09 n 10...
SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahhahaa
and yeah saw him siah... damn funny la... u are getting more lame.. maybe i didnt reali talk to u muc las sem...
this sem more interactions..
but from ur conversation with someone else.. i guess u hv somenbbody in mind alrdy..
but oh well... u're jus an eyecandy..
jasmine ask me this today.. wad if ***** says he likes me too...
me : 100% no way he will.. thn i pause.. nth is absolute in this world leh.. hahahaaha
but end up i also said i don wan a relationship now.. jus wana hv fun... and don wan any heartbreaking thing to affect me...
but im missing u.. hahaha.. but i dont wan and canot like u thats wad i know.. so don wan to bother too much la.. enjoy e way we are now...
one huge fall is enuf recently.. k nt reali recently.. but its stil recovering.. don wan to rip myself aprt again so soon..
having french test on thursday.. gona try my best though i say i will die... but thn.. nth is absolute yea... hehee.. like this sentence too muc la..
* If it doesnt happens on you doesnt mean it will not happen, nothing is absolute in this world *
Friday, May 23, 2008,7:07 AM
Keyboard spoil
ARGh!!!!!!!!! 2 days didnt use comp... irritated... then alot things wan to say also forgot liao la...
anyway... that silly boy... STOP SMOKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It onli makes u feels gd for a moment but torture u as e more u consume... ONE BOX IS ALOT...
there are many others way to relief stress which are much shiok shiok shiok one k!!! hahhhaaha sports, dance, singing or the best
clark quay bungee !!! though its vry ex la..
cigarette also expensive lo...
k i think i should stop here..
gt a feeling u wil be vry angry if u read this..
-.-!! * scared *
THURSDAY!!!!!!!!!!! wahahahaha im so happy la... mrning go school saw u!!! on bus stop heehee.. don dare to call u... then stupidly walk infront of u and gei gei look back so u can see me...
and YA!! u did!
and u eh me.. LOL!!!!!!!!!
so cute la u...
my eyecandy :D
so happy u are in sugarloaf and nt toptable hahaha..
though stewarding vry xinku.. i complain alot.. but actuali i complain to make e rest laugh onli la.. to add dramatic effects...
WHY THEY DUNO HOW TO FINISH FOOD!!!!!!!!! SO WASTE!!!!!!!!! make me scrape into e bin... so heart pain la... FOOD LEH!!!!!!! NICE FOOD!!
the sight of u jus wanan make me laugh... dun reali knw u yet.. hope u are nt those guys that are vry disappointing..
lookin forward to evry thursday :D
Tuesday, May 20, 2008,5:43 AM
weird dressing...
Today woke up late for lesson... end up wear smth weird... some pple stil say cute.. like wad the hell... i felt weird n out of place in sch too... hahahahaha
evrything doesnt reali seems right today... but oh well... thats it la...
lose my appettite big time... but kip stuffing food...
jus like las time...
i think im siao...
brother bullied me lo....
i look at e chair i gt feelin he will pull it away...
but thn i stil sit... end up
ya reali... i landed on e ground... so painful..
i feel like crying out loud...
from all e tears i had surpressed...
but onli teared abit...
too tired to cry alrdy... sick of it...
love is jus a torture.. and i watch a drama show today... reali ... love tortures pple...
though love will give happiness to some pple...
out of 10... how many??
Sunday, May 18, 2008,10:51 AM
Love is a scary thing
My world crash again...
I wonder how many times can i crash n stood up again since i very... die also refuse to say die..
yet.. im weak..
thnks for coming to crash me so hard i know it wasnt on purpose..
i bawled for almos 2 hours... again... so much pain...
i think i dont dare to fall in love with anybody again...
its too scary..
,9:34 AM
SHANGRI LA!!
Today dress up nice nice... wear make up... make my hair somemore.. which is rare... wear dress n boots... then weather make me perspire like siao!!! so unglam!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WAH... had a hard time finding shangri la!!!!! perspire like siao n end up... took bus there..n need to walk quite long lo... KNS!!!!!!!!!!
welll i enjoyed myself jus that was quite angry i didnt hv enough space in my stomach to finish evrything they hv...
i didnt eat much ofthe crepe!!! :(!!! and i didnt eat enough meat... and pasta!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
n e CHOCOLATE MOOSE CAKE!!!!!!!!!!! WTF!!!!!!!!!!!
hahahahaah thnk you ZAWLIN!!!!!!!!!! i will treat u to smth good when its ur bday k... nt as belated as mine!!! hahahahah
oh well...
i took a look at the vipes results... I WASNT IN FOR OPENING AND LOCKING :(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but then neh mind la.. gt 4 items liao... but no modern! :(
MEI QI is like EVRYWHERE... hahahahaah all those girls can get in one sure gt her.. she is dope! hahhaha sooo ccuteeee ... love her to e max
* im straight *
alot pple kip suspecting im BI or LES.. coz i always get excited seeing some girls who i think is cute dopee shuai or sexy...
its jus a kind of admiration.. im jus being truthful n show my feelins wad... nt reali that kind of like... ARGH!!
anyway im damn scared my part time job wil clash with vibes training ... which i think sure will one lo... so i need to find replcement... :( like how!!
k that time comes then say..
thats all for today :D
going to put on mask liao..
Saturday, May 17, 2008,11:21 AM
KTV again plus KOnight Again
KTV was fun... e room damn big... alot pple came... i sang quite alot... n it was vry peaceful before kaiwen came...
after he came... i cannot sing in peace alrdy... THNKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sang some emo song reali felt like cryin....
Didi improved though...
Meiqi is sooo cute lo......!!! hhahhahah
its Kat bday celebration hope she is reali happy :D she is vry cute and blur... her reaction vry funny also... hahahahhaha i tot it was her who snore on e bus but its e person behind her... -.-!!
KO NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
some poppers are dope siah! but don reali rmb names la.. onli know alex..
Rahim n Darien are so cool k... i like e way they responded hahahah!! soo cute... alot pattern... dope!
They got in and i was sooo happy i teared!!! exaggerating but true.. felt so happy for rahim!
zaihar n hafiz are.. OMG!... they stuns are dope... e cap!!! and e way they responded oso vry guai lan... i like!
oh ya... danny...eeeeeeee fake monk... walked in with fion siahz... LOL!!
k after that we go eat lo.. i drank one litre of orange juice.. abit mad.. vry full lo...
I guess im alil out of my mind today...
abit siao...
or reali siao...
anyway i suspect e person kaiwen talkin to on e phone happily is....... heheeeheee
who else is nt on e bus except..... hahahhaa
i jus suspect la..
Friday, May 16, 2008,10:03 PM
Tears like River Nille
Dream of you again... woke up and tear till my bolsters n pillow got wet...
Thought i alrdy let go and start to accept new entrance to my life...
end up i guess its jus that i surpress evrything down too hard and i jus explode today...
well.. mayb a few more of these can help me to let go faster...
In the dream.. i dream of me telling pple that u don love me anymore and u don wan me anymore... ouch...
and i can see the image of me being vry sad while u are enjoying laughing with ur group of friends...
well this is selfish as i onli tot of myself suffered... i know u suffered too..
There is jus somthing lacking in my life that is different from when i hav you...
Tryin to figure out waht that is..
,12:24 AM
another thursday
SSM AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!
although its vry tiring but its vry fun... and.... I GET TO SEE HIM EVRY THURSDAY!!! heehee
same group now.. DAMN HIGH... I jus cant stop myself from laughing at him...
GOt into Sugarloaf... though cannot practice for proficiency test vry sad.. but stil ok la..
we got free muffins!!!
Iam aiming at the merigue lo...
TUESDAY FASTER COME!!
My french lecturer is hot and soo damn cute omg!!! faint**
I will put in moe effrot for this :D
heehee
Miraculously... Dad found my phone... its in his car...
I think i got serious hallucination about puting e phone on the fire extinguisher box..
too stress?? hhahhaha
I wan to go shoppingggggggggggg
CRAVING FOR BENS N JERRY!!!!!!!
Wednesday, May 14, 2008,8:27 AM
Today is normal
Normal day... nothing new... but dress quite smartly for phototaking la... photos didnt turn out as bad as i thought...
razzmy choreo kips ringing in my mind...
I Party like a rockstar I Look like a movie star I Play like an all star I F**k like a pornstar
hahahaha... like it !!
NO MATTER HOW MUCH I TRIED... I STIL SCORE 26/30 FOR THE GEO TEST... WAH LAO...!!!!! VRY PEK CEK... BUT.. OH WELL...
ps : no matter how bad u are.... somehow it still overwhelm my anger in a few days and i jus miss u again...
Tuesday, May 13, 2008,10:50 AM
Vipes
very happy at dance today!!! force myself to dance... heehee... tryin to ignore my back... but when razmy choreo came... walo pain like shit i shouted pain... while tryin to do the choreo... i like it vry much!! heehee
actuali i like all choreo... coz all is fun!!!!!!
got abit sad coz i know i wont get into locking... but i was glad i enjoy myself alot...
REGGAE!!!!!!! i think i did nt bad for it... I THINK ONLI la.. hahahaha back pain though...
jean's hiphop is so cute k... jump here jump there.. so fun!!!
nicole's girls hiphop is SEXY!!!!!!!!!!!! i love the las part... heehee
modern... LOL!! i do til i laugh... coz i reali think i look so funny tryin so hard to look nice... but i did my best alrdy... oh well...
rahim's first choreo is vry nice.. but i failed to do the drag n didnt put out the essence in audition round...
the man's hiphop is cool la... the first part so cute k... hahahaah!! enjoyed it...
Danny's popping... i think he demo that time he dance off beat leh.. ahhaha thn e timng n beat abit weird.. but i jus do lo... also laugh... coz i did like vry funny..
locking OMG!!! i love it la!! so cute!!! but then.. my technique vry weak... hav to wrk hard..
I was quite shocked that i actuali sat on danny's legs... as in attempted la.. didnt reali put e whole weight down... scared he cannot dance... hahahaha!!
breaking... of coz i wont go out n roll on the floor... but some others did vry well.. hazrul... * duno how to spell * is still dope!!!!!!! wooooooooo!!
Oh well... enjoy tonight :D
,10:44 AM
why broke up is always so unpleasant..
thought of u again...
somehow its nt a pleasant one nor a sad one...
rather the tot of u urks me... irritated me quite alot...
ur childishness in my memory is not longer sweet.. but it becomes stupidity...
ur gentleness somehow... feeel so fake now...
but ur irritated eyes seems soo damn real...
hahahaha...
Maybe its a good way... to end evrything... opps... actuali it ended long ago...
i stopped my time for quite long... hahahha
to you.. my behaviour jus seems silly n not a grown up... but u don reali understand... those hurtful words i will not forget though i don wan to rmb... but u.. made me realise that sadness for u worth nth... nth at all...
and i seriously don wan to be happy thinkin of u...
it onli drag things on...
so allow me to hate u for now... which i finally able to bring myself to... after almost 8months...
and after this...
one day...
I will still love you...
as a friend...
thats wad u wana hear from me right...
* as a friend *
haiz.... talking about u nowadays... i also dono am i sayine truth or " kou shi xin fei " goign against my heart...
Monday, May 12, 2008,4:28 AM
LOST
this year is serioulsy not a good year for me....
been injured...
sick...
and keep losing things...
LOST IC n EZLINK..
lost matric card but got it back..
today morning i jus lost my handphone....
wow.... wads next...??
lost my soul??? or my life??
sick of all these alrdy... esp when u are super broke ...
Friday, May 9, 2008,9:40 AM
Tired of crying
I think im tired of crying...
sms him... tio rejected.. didnt cry
talk to him online... him talkin til like couldnt care less or sian sian...
end up tell me he is actuali angry... n strts to show concern but mass lecture...
i didnt cry... normally i think i will flood my keyboard alrdy...
he kip emphasizing " as a fren " ya... see liao gt e sinkin feeling yet i think coz im soo use to it... i don reali feel e wana cry feeling..
OLD TORTOISE WITHOUT HAIR TRYING TO ACT HIgh TECHNOLOGY!!!!!!!!!!!
,7:38 AM
$$$$$$$$$$$$$
IM SO DAMN BROKE OK!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jus bought a pair of heels tot can use for BUSE end up... CANOOT and i have to buy a new pair... waste my money..
DON LIKE MY HAIR TODAY... damn bad...
Fall aslp in lecture again!!! when can i stop that!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!
Im so busy today la... mrning... wake up take skirt n blazer to alter... buy sockings... then buy pancake for breakfast... forget wallet.. so go home n go bac to e places again... end up late for lecture n didnt go..
spend time making up and do my hair!! wah faster grow longer PLS...
i kip eating choco... n my fats is like piling up !! hahahaha
for dinner i didnt spend any money... i ate wad my mom bought for herself hahah! share la.. then met up don ziya n esther... they were eating ajisan except don.. coz he wans his CHEESE PASTA... i stare.. n eat abit LOL!...
thn i saw this dress... DAMN NICE... i love it... 69 dollars... :( bo lui....
hahhaa
i smsed issac ask him wan to watch movie nt... he thick skinly replied are u askin me out on a date???
i entertain him ya la... don make me shy..
tot he will agreee
end up
i think my friend ask me to watch that alrdy... sorry.. mayb nx time..
ok lor... though i wan to scold wad ths fuck now...
but i DON WAN... coz im so used to it...
he's jus a bloody fucker anyway...
thnks to all these irritation he gav me... makes me able to treat him more like a friend...
though i still canot let u go or wipe u out of my life completely...
i don think i wana do that... coz i think stil can be friends... so i wil jus let u go slowly...
Thursday, May 8, 2008,6:24 AM
TIRED
SSM was damn fun but tiring today... almos doze off SOoooo many times tat i was spotted many times as well and MR zainal laugh at my hilarous behavior tryin to keep myself awake...
didnt hit my expectation of under 10 secs for wine opening.. and did 15secs.. well some pple says i cheated but i know i didnt coz for e las time i know wheres e mistake n did it properly.. n got 15secs..
Was vry hungry.. but whenever i eat i feel like vomitting... it sux bt i stil stuff e food inside...
went to e police post n the policemen told me no need to report for lost IC ... walaoz... haahahaha waste effort oh well
My eye candy is so cute okay!!!!!!! ah!!!!!!!!!!! hahaaha was glad to be in same SSM with him but always gt separated..
anyway felt kinda weird that someone make me wana stick closer to him... but then... who cares..
still miss issac la... KNS... its super hard to overwhelm e feelings coz his preseence is tooooo overwhelmin
I hope my hair doesnt spoil too much becox of SSM n BUSE...
Wednesday, May 7, 2008,7:15 AM
not feeling well
not feeling vry well today.. stomach bloated n LS whole day...
wore quite loudly to sch today.. coz was feelign great.. however thnks to someone spoil my day at e end of e day... i saw her n go say hi..
she " u gt trg today ? "
me " no " she " wah no trg why wear until lidat as if u gt trg... now adays dancers damn act lor... reali lor... i see e dancers vry act "
me " where got "
she " anyway u all kick out alot juniors "
me " the intake vry little this time so that onli good pple can get in la.. to make e club better mah"
she rolled her eyes and said smth nasty i cant rmb and continue " do u know that some of the juniors are even better than e seniors ? "
she " las time u all also cannot dance one wad "
FUCK LOR... i was damn irritated n i pretend to be ok with u la... fuck la... las time u like dat .. one yr later still lidat... u decided to left e club one lo... so don come n critise wad e club is doing n decided okay!!!
u also nv see us dance so long... how much we improve... u know meh!!! i bet most of us are better than u alrdy!!!!!
I used to talk good things for u when ppple bad mouth u... but today i jus cannot tahan alrdy...
coz i get more involve in e club n i like e more n more.. i cnnot take it when u so called insulted it ok!!!!
k nvm...
Was super high in school today talkign about the entreprenuers ideas... i gt tons of it la...
1) adjustable heels 2) condom vending machines with red bull 3) bites size pizze crust stuff with cheese 4) flavoured thick fries 5) taiwan food such as sausage n ba wan 6) vending machines for soft ice cream jus like Mac's
okies end of sch... printing SSM notes onli cost me 6 dollars n hvn print finish somemore... GOD!! ahahahaha almos gt bang by merc... coz was cycling with one hand onli.. e other hugging e DOUBLE QUALITY PAPER...
STUPID BLISSY STROKE MY CHIN... MY GREAT NONO!!!!!!!!!!! its a taboo okay.. will get wack by me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i also jump out on e road coz she stroke me in e middle of crossing e traffic light... THNKS!!!!!!!!!!!
CONCLUSION TODAY
I LOVE COOKIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SUBWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D but famous amous still best
Tuesday, May 6, 2008,10:07 AM
today is today
well... was vry shock for blissy to tell me she broke up with e guy alrdy whe nshe jus told me they gt tgt one week ago... -.-!!
bloody fucker make my sister sad... i hav to sayang her all e way k... hahhhhaha jk jk
I BOUGHT WRONG SKIRT LA.. stil argue with mom on e phone n say i don bluff her coz she vry blur... when she alrdy told me my blazer is black i insist on dark blue... n now i wonder.. if i don believe her.. why on earth i call her lo!!!!!!!! GONG LEH... then now buy wrong!!! ARGH...
and then... gossip with some t10 peeps.. hahaha so bad... but i find them fun :D hahhaa reuben is super bimbotic.. reminds me of ROYSTON... HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!! n his bday is onli one day after me... heng i came out first :D...
Saw martin in sch n he looked so much happier im damn happy heeheee... hope huijing can reali treasure e relationship and love my dog real well... n hope my dog don bully her!!! though im nt vry close to her la... hahahaha
talked to bliss about issac.. n strt to miss all e times we had n how we play n disturb each other.. so sweet la k... cannot forget soo many things... and esp when u open ur arms and ask me to go over.. SO CUTE!!!!!!! SO SWEET!!!!!!!! hahahaaha LOVE U SO MUCH LA!! though its all memories... ya i love e memories... n that u... 8 months ago...
SUPER SAD cannt go dance today coz my back haven recover...ARGH!!!!!!!!!
ok on msn..
argue with ryan.. that stupid idiotic childish overgrown!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he says he is totally cool.. n i replied " yea totally not hot "
he like don get it can... DUMB................
anyway didnt see guoquan online... cannot tok cok with him.. he is a great entertainment at times.. onli when he is not insensitive
matthew was being rther random la... abit question mark towards e thing he says.. but well... nvm... don wan to think so much also..
and guixiong said ytd incident didnt crash his feelings siah... was surprise it actuali could go that far...
argue with bliss like real sisters la... damn funny... count evry cents out of evrything with eac other... $.$... hehehee i jus love her n don wan anyone to hurt her lo... so heartache see her lidat... ARGH!!!!
danny is being * funny? * k i duno wad word to describe him... but yea... so much of lolipop!!
i duno wad to post today la.. being vry random.. walao.. my bicycle pray that it will be e same when i see it tml... PLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, May 5, 2008,5:47 AM
Ramen Ramen
I wan authentic nice ramen jus like wad naruto loves to eat.. but then how come evrytime i tot i found one nice shop sure gt pple tell me its nt nice.... sooo sad la....
WARAKU
is so far e best that i have eaten....
wanted to eat e one at clarkquay... but my gor say waraku better... hm...
anyway vry happy... going to buy my formal tml... hopr gt my size n design.. .PRAY!!!
then i can save alot money... PLS PLS PLS PLS!!!!!!!!! thn gt money to dance liao!! hahahahahaha k lame...
need to wake up at 7 to go make IC tml.. think im jus going to collapse lo... SO EARLY LA~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, May 4, 2008,10:25 AM
WALAO
im soo damn touch by their spirits... and e feel... and their technique... gonna work hard in modern!!!
,10:07 AM
had some fun today as well
woke up at 12... but duno why end up waking up at 2~!!!!!
and i have to delay my meeting time with darling MIC!!!!!!!!!!!
n i was late somemore!!!!!!!!! ah!!!!!!!!!!! hahhah had diarrheo in e afternoon n took a long time in bathe rooom... hahahha
GOR said i look pretty today... quite shock to be complimented by HIM!
i gave MIC a bigggggggggggg hug when isaw her AH!!!!!!!! love to hug her... so comfy.. heehee.. then we went to eat... SHE PASS ME E XIONG XIONG BING GAN!!!! THNKS BIG TIME!!!!!!!!!! wad i have been loookin for to cheer MARTIN up heehee
then... went to look for e all impt formal wear... end up nv buy... coz tooo exp!!! waiting for sales.. n im gonna tell tutor that they don have e stock for e skirt n will onli come nx month... hahahahaha!! GSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
end up i spend 60 dollars on other clothings!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! walao... hahahaha bought a dress i reali like... gona wear tml... n a jacket ... n a tshirt... heehee...
she warn me for meeting gui xiong.. hahah sooo funny...
wasnt feeling anything on e way to meet him...
but when i reached tamp.. i was rather nervous... but after say hi.. ok liao la.. jus abit weird lo... he is super blur la... I DON LIKE HIS HAIR LA... so LONG N MESSY!!... hahahah cover his eyes.. walaoo...
then he is too skinny k... hahahahaha dark circle quite serious as well...
then he treat me to IRON man... nt bad ... hahahah e show is dope... how i wish i can fly in that suit... hahaha
then he tryin smth funny in e cinema la... i think he should pray n thnk god coz i didnt bash him up... LOL!!!!!!
then he send me home lo.... on e way home... i gt sad becos of e sms... thats all.. and im at home now... crappin with pple online... hahahaha ate an ice cream cone i felt soooo happY!!
,8:54 AM
I failed terribly today...
msg him in e afternoon... coz i finally have e i let go alrdy e feeling.... so msg him to disturb him as a friend...
he didnt reply... whole day...
n i wonder...
at night... i jus msged his brother... and knew that he fall sick...
suddenly I felt so messed up... coz i had a bad feeling... coz evrytime he was sick... he will still have energy for many thigns... how come this time he fall asleep so early..
He even sees a doc!... thinks he is reali tired from training and needed rest...
i wanted to go see him sooo much.... but his brother suggest that i don appear... coz he doesnt wans to get involve...
my heart crash... terribly...
i felt as though i have no legs while walking home from tm...
it seemed that i shrank... n floatin one air... or rather i felt too heavy that i couldnt feel my legs...
soo tired to cry.... completely crashed...
" why !!! why it became like this.. i couldnt even visit u when u are sick... i couldnt even msg u to ask if u are well... i couldnt call u to hear ur voice to assure me u are nt feeling terrible... i couldnt stop myself from having heartache... i couldnt stop e tears to flow while listening to a chi song " yang chong " walao....i couldnt i couldnt i couldnt SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
yah some of u may think.. even i also thought... jus sick onli wad... why reaction so big.... I ALSO DUNO...
think its bcoz i couldnt be concern abt him.. ssort of like... im even less than a friend... so much pain la... but i will still smile my way thru after i finish crying...
its been a long time since i cry till i make noises... hahahaha it feels so much better la.. and thnks stef n beau to respond online.. so i don feel so alone
actuali i have no reasson to cry... since ... Im out of ur life.. and u are out of mine... its past tense...
Friday, May 2, 2008,10:57 AM
PARTY WORLD
WHO SAYS PPLE WHO DANCE DON REALI SING WELL...
WELL... we DANCE n we SING ok...
Finally i get to enjoy e holiday feeling... been super busy this holiday.. coz of dance n wrk...
well though sch strts alrdy.. but its always a 2 weeks extra break for me.. well.. * BLINK EYES * hahahah right serene... hahahah
its fun... kaiwen is damn funny... he sing ah.. walaoo. e tune anyhow fly.. but thn he sings " wo nan guo " is nice... can go bluff girls liao..
royston is super funny... he act like didi teach lidat.. kip sayin his singing... LOL!!!! DIDI voice is unique if train harder on control n pitching.. will be vry nice..
Andreas sounds better in eng or chi songs.. actuali both are gd.. depends on wad song onli... i onli know he sing last night is super funny coz of his expression n e accent...
IRIS SANG!! she sounded so sweet la k.. nt like me... walao... sianz... she is soo damn cute la... gong gong one... but actuali nt gong at all k! hahahahaa she gt vry gd dressing sense... of coz la.. she study... !@#$%^& course de lo... in design sch...
I tot JJ was wearind red.. but end up its PINK.. thnks to e light.. hahahaaha didint reali hear him sing.. mayb coz i sang too loudly hahahaha... but i hlp him push up his songs..
N I DONT ONLI PUSH UP MY SONGS LA!!!! I HELPIN TO RESHUFFLE ONLI!!!!!!!! AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
n I DON SIMG WITH MY MIC SO FAR!! SO KUA ZHANG....
* BLINK EYES *
These are pictures of them
kaiwen is blurred...
hmmmmm
ahhh....
AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Heehee
ME
Welfare head!!
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About
Melissa Lin [Happylin]
Wanted to be Merkissa
Hair growing at 166cm
Weigh..shhhhhh too scary
Born in Venus grown up In Tampines.
I'm a Beautiful Star Pisces , and my Spaceship crash on earth on 21 feb 1990 .
Loves
Colors :Gold,Pink,Black,Grey,Purple Foods : Cakes&Cookies Movies : No Horror Idols : MELISSA THE GREAT
Dear Santa
Likes
Sexy lingerie
Triump corset
Caps
Dresses
Shoes
Bangles
Cosmetics
Bags
Ear rings
Necklaces
Food vouchers
NECKLACE WITH A SPOON AS THE PENDENT!!! Dislikes
Pink Roses
Soft toys
Figurines
Things that cannot use cannot wear cannot eat put there waste my space only
Dear Fairy Godmother
I wish for...
*Find soul in music
*Able to freestyle easily
*Strong vocal
*Express myself on stage
*Shine as a special individual
*Guitar!!!!!!
*Sweet food :D
*Spicy food :D
*SteamBoat
*Volleyball!!
*WORLD Tour!!!!!!!!!!!
*See wonders of the world with my own eyes!
*MUST VISIT ROME IN MY LIFETIME
EWWW!!!
*Being emo
*Stress
*Any injuries
*Overeating HAHA!!
*To feel that dancing is not a happy thing
*Pple to misunderstand me
*Cigarette