well i jus know how to put video on youtube and decided to put my super unglam birthday video..
Ya la... its damn funny.. im like siao char bor can... this is wad my lovely class did to me... hehee
,11:11 AM
Audition day
Didnt feel to welll e whole day... no appetite but force myself to eat... end up eating alot.. siao one... okay...
and back to eating.... before we reach osch..
actuali went to that place i nv wan to go again... bcoz it jus made me think of u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHIT!
and then... nvm la.. tpde made me laugh... so yea...
stupid kaiwen!!! i say joey ( fbodz ) dam shuai.. he start to link to me being nt straight... then sudenly say danny also vry pretty wad... I LAUGH LIKE SIAO!!!!!!!!!
and then out of no where... they suddenly match me and royston... HAHAHAHA!!! so random... so funny k!... he is like my happypill la... always make me laugh like duno wad... coz he vry nonsense.. but then... not that kind of relationship la... Im nt pinno-kio... or ang mo kio la..
and there is this bell damn low.. that audrey pointed out.. n i jus suan joey that its meant for her... hahahahahaa LOL!! then she strt suanning me with klock liao... duno why she kips thinkin i like him... oh well... don care... coz i know she playin one..
finally finish my choreo at osch.... and then onli dance once to e music... so im extra panick....
went up and dance... FORGOT my choreo.. vryy disappointed with myself lo.. but i told myself don giv up... jus groove... n think of smth.. tats wad i did la... though its bad... but welll its over...
i reali feel like crying so badly... but i told myself nt to... and when GIN said i improve I WAN TO CRY!!!!!!!!!! its like... WAH U FINALLY SAW ME!!!!!!!! U SAW MY EFFORTS!!! ... hahahaha
tears came out but didnt let them roll down... and yea its a mix of emotions...
BUT ... i wont give up on dance... I reali found happiness and alot of feelings when i dance... love it sooo much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! though im nt good now.. doesnt mean i will at this level forever... i will work hard ok!
I seriously like rahim style... soooooo.. how to say... EXPRESSION-LY... k no such word... neh mind.. jus vry gd feel lo...
JUNWEI touched me!!! that music n his moves... somehow duno why jus touch me... hahahaha so dope la....
BaDD n MAy surprises me...
SERENE improve alot!!! so coolll...
and Beau gt this statement from some of them " she reali is wo hu chang long... and stef said it as " wo hu chang DAO! " we LOL!! hahahha... she's sharp.. n i didnt reali notice she off beat alot.. coz e song alot beats... i think my ears need help...
Tim said my hearing is vry weird.. hahahahaa coz i always don hear my phone when its super loud...
Razmy got some cool moves there... hahahaah nice!
WEI QIANG IS DOPE LA... he stil can play !!!! sooo cute i laugh till siao...
and then... heehee i finally know who ah foong likes... giggles... so cute...
and its like 12 plus then we left osch!!!!!!!!! waliewwwwwwwwwwww
CAB $.$
after i alighted my heart sank... n i msg danny... was super happy he actuali said its good.. well.. thnks D!!
Wanted to cry.. but then i tot to myself.. if lidat.. i will cry alot times de lorh... coz i wil face alot of this kind of stuff in future n to prevent such things... i should wrk harder n nt cry la..
when my back recover.. i will go back to reggae!!!
and now i train hands lor.... hahahahaha
YOSHIE IS DOPE
and i feel vry sad coz i think i hurt kaiwen... im so sorry but i duno wad to say.. and he also like don wan to talk to me when i ask him... :'( !!!!!
IM SRRY KAIWEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, April 27, 2008,8:56 AM
choreographin
OMG............. tomoro is the day for audition and then i change alot thigns lo... n then i haven reali dance to e music... n i think im reali going to mess up and end up freestyle....... anyway.. who cares.... Im jus going to enjoy my music... hahahha
fall sick .... almos vomitted on e way home...
k anyway today... quite dramatic la... so called quarel with danny on sms... about some lame shit... lunch treat... talk to him reali mus have good patience and good character... or not will explode... Im good... so yea.. still surviving...
and then i randomly went to beautrice house at BISHAN!!!!!!!!!!! so dam far la... to choreo.... and yar....
on e bus.. i talk to bear bear... talk till PHONE NO BATT!!!!!!!!!!!!
n i panick coz i duno where beautrice live.. onli know its bishan... but i still kip calm... coz i gt bring charger!!! hahahaahah and anything ... jus go home lo... hahahahahaha
then e stupid info AUNTY don allow me to use their socket because " sorry miss its not in our policy "
she cannot jus talk cock entertain me about e junction 8 for 5mins while i get enuf batt to contact beau meh!!!
then buay ta han
i go MAC... coz gt socket.. i retardedly walk around MAC lookin at walls... and alot pple lookin at me lo... walao... k don care... then i onli spot on socket.. which is nex to e counter la... then i go there... wan to pluck in... e person " hi.. welcome to mac can i help u... "
I straight away... " can i have a student meal... fillet o fish please... "
FORCE ME TO EAT MAC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
then i stand there n eat e fries.. until im able to on e phone.. i called beau.. heng she also in JUNCTION 8!!! she came to save me... love u!!!
then we went down to get her food... i shun bian bought one shilin chicken...
hahahha haven reach her house... i fnish almos evrything except the burger na few fries... hahaha
feel sick eating alot junk... then end up got worse...
she showed me some videos... n i was surprise koda kumi could dance well... hahahaha
and then... went to her voiddeck to choreo... n i STONE when i saw ah lee friend... e guy from osch... hahhaha then i dont dare dance... until he walk away... hahhahaha
then after that go beau house play with mascara.. coz my eyelashes cannot stay curling up.. she gave me fasio one... nt bad.. can stay... n she said its impossible to clean it away without their fasio makeup remover.. n i left it at her house... neh mind... see wad i can do later...
Im nt feelin well.. n im super hungry... dats all............
Saturday, April 26, 2008,12:38 PM
Its Weird
Its super weird okay...
i thought of issac n suepr emo... then i saw this person's picture... i suddenly stop e emo feel.. n smile siah...
eeeeeeeeeeeee...
hahahha why gt such thing de!!!!
He gave me alot reasons to smile... to perservere and to be strong... thnks..
ya i know some of u know who Im sayin la...
* the unreachable star *
he is so damn cute la k... talk to him... that kind of angry is nt reali furious angry but is those dno wad to do with him that kind of angry...
n e way he talk... walao... cannot take it.. win liao lo... full of rubbish!!!!
but then i dont think i like him... seriously.. and i don wan to.. :D
jus that i realise he is a vry impt person to me... just like some impt friends i have..
thnks for giving me so much laughters n smiles...
n i wont like u! don worry.. so dat all these will nt turn to tears n sadness..
I will be HAPPYLIN
,12:02 AM
...
Walao... duno why... i suddenly saw issac online... his nickname was " i seem to lost my soul "
my heart sank...
I began to worried n i feel sad...
I dont wan to talk to him anymore... a least till i got over him...
I don wan to do anything alrdy.... i told myself..
but then end up... I still cannot tahan... go SMS him and ask if he is okay...
then i was editing this blog...
I came across to serene's blog...
and then...
THAT SONG!!!!!!!!! omg...
reali say my feeelings like TOTALLY.. I sang alot... n i cried... STUPID right... ya I know..
Until I Get Over You - Christina Milian Woke up today thinking of you Another night that I made my way through So many dreams still left in my mind But they can never come true I press rewind and remember when I close my eyes and I'm with you again But in the end I can still feel the pain, every time I hear your name
[Chorus] The sun won't shine since you went away Seems like the rain's falling every day There's just one heart,where there once was two But that's the way it's gotta be,'til I get over you
Walked through the park, in the evening air I heard a voice and I thought you were there I run away but I just can't escape Memories of you everywhere They say that time will dry the tears But true love burns for a thousand years Give my tomorrows for one yesterday Just to know that I could have you here
[Bridge] When will this river of tears stop fallin' Where can I run so I won't feel alone Can't walk away when the pain keeps callin' I've just gotta take it from here on my own But it's so hard to let go
Its painful and not easy i know...
but i will carry that few sentences from you and move on...
" Just continue trying... i know its hard "
that wad u replied when i told u I couldnt forget u...
Friday, April 25, 2008,4:38 AM
my wishful thinking
Today my back ache like siao la... i think cause i gei kiang go carry 3 tank of mineral water on e oval tray.... anyway its nt fill to e brim... its vry heavy still... n walk whole day at expo n tcc... back cannot take it.. but duno why today mrnin then so painful...
miss lectures... so i stay at home thinkin of choreo as usual...
talk crap on phone with bear bear... hahhahaa nickname i gave him... guess he dont know abt it...
after that i wanted to go sch to practice my choreo..
father don allow... coz of my backache n i skip lecture... n can actuali go for dance..
don wan to argue.. i jus guai guai lo
went online... and a stupid idiot made me cry... by sayin he doesnt care about my promise...
n i tot...
this promise has been driving me on... makin me do my best in trainings and performance...
so many times i wan to giv up on choreo... but mostly bcoz of e promise.. i didnt giv up...
n i tot ... i believe n trust him.. having alot faith in him.. supprting him..
end up... in return " i don care about ur promise!!! "
i understand he is concern bout my back n askin me to don dance to get well... but how can he say that sentence!!!!!!
sooo ouch... tears jus flow out of my eyes immediately... n i cry like an idiot... jus bcoz i feel so damn hurt....
he still can tell me stuff like don eat KFC...
n i quite angry with myself coz i duno i wan to get upset with him or nt... i jus feel damn hurt la... '
but then e thigns he say.. walao.. still so cute lo... i duno wan to get angry or laugh...
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
T.T
Friday, April 18, 2008,10:00 AM
TCC performance
heehee its was vry fun.... but we reach kinda too early lo... then break early too.... k lock n danny was there too... didnt expect they will come early to practice... hehee
danny super no link... ask him why come so early he smile n then frown" i stomache " ... k... if he ans my qns directly.. he is nt danny liao...
then its super funny in the room lo.. coz e poopers did vry funny thigns .... popping with sweet dreams... LOL!!
on stage... e feelin vry high... sam is sooo sexy la... her nike sports bra... hahahaha.... betty boob!!... then her choreo also vry dope...!! i want to dance reggae too!!!!
danny n klock look like couple!!!!!!!!!!!!! reali... they trust n support they have for eac other jus shine out as they dance lo... telephatic too.. its seems like they understand each other vry well... ok i crap la.. they partner so long liao... hahahah so many performances too...
danny vry funny,... he was eating lolipop.. n gt choke as he perform on stage!! hahahah tan chi...
i think andreas is the onewho shouted first... then i gt so damn high i kip shouting too n energy jus burst out lo... hahahaha i was vry happy coz they gt praise me on my expression... finally gt abit regconise got my efforts.. heehee but still techniques wise... i have alots to work on.. will work hard OK!
i jus hope one day... rahim will jus " guys... u are reali good!!! great job!!" i wil be soo happy!
,9:25 AM
tpde chalet!!!!
omg!!! k i know its vry late to post about this but i jus wan to post about it....
its damn fun la k........ i reach late becoz i drag alot time at home... then i needed to wait for princess beau beau lo... n when she reach ar... she reali jus sit there n eat... i even fed her... PRINCESS right... hahahaha k la.. i zi zao one... hahahah and thanks to her then gt BoA to see... OMG!!!
reach liao they alrdy eaten half of the stuff... but then i still continue jus eat... eat till e las batch of chicken wing... heehee.... n coz we don hv enuf charcoal.... i jus my BEAUTY or shuld i say MANLINESS... to either bluff or threaten a packet of charcoal from the next pit...
didnt expect to see Danny there... but then he appeared... gt food... i think he sure will come.. gt bed to sleep also... sure slp... gt dance pple mayb gt dance... he also will come... his logo " slp eat dance "
it was vry fun n enjoyable la.. play alot funny games... XI NIU NAI... damn dope lo!!! nice intro by razmy!!!! hahaahha actuali i find razmy a vry nice person jus that he is super straight forward n sometimes his joke abit too wild lo... but smtimes vry funny la... n after concert... he became super nice... dono why... hahaha or mayb he is always like dat jus that i nv interact wit him much... well......
my face was drawn like tribal leader lo... duno doing wad ritual... hahahaha then i don wan to wash coz wan to be sporty ma... end up it became vry itchy.. then i wash lo.. but my skin was alil burn... nex day gt pimples k!!! but the day after those small pimples was gone!!
stupid royston kip makin me laugh la!!!!!! he is sooo funnyy!!! and i love the wolf n sheep game.. i kip askin him wad game it is becoz he cannot pronouce it properly... as i kept hearing oof n chips.. then i tot is some food game... hahahah!!! then he jus shouted into my face " WOLF N SHEEP LA!!! " imgine his face.. LOL!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel dam shiok when i accuse pple n e crowd believed me!!! hahahaah so fun!!!!!!!!
Waaad the hellllll............
didnt realli gt to slp... but due to e vodka then i drink with one big sip... using straw... my face was burning ... n i tot i had fever... but then when i reach home... i reali gt high fever... coz i over freeze myself i guess... no blanket n i slp on the marble floor!!! e nx day eat breakfast then i head home...wash up n go meet friends... then go work till midnight lo!!! 2am then reach home... wrk half way i almos die... but i perservere!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha
anyway its fun lor... hahahaha
Sunday, April 13, 2008,8:10 AM
My songs
Today i decided to post up e songs i have wrote so far
myfirstsong (没理由放弃)
如果爱你是那么的辛苦 为什么我还努力的追求
寻找以认定的幸福 走到你门前的那一条路 我爱你 我心里 很愿意跟你在一起 决定把爱留在这里
** 就算只剩下一天的时间 我也愿意陪着你 就算我看不见明天的日出 也要和你看今天的日落
我没你想象那么柔弱 我会坚强的守候 属于 我们的那片天空
缘分不管是谁 用多少时间 我还是会 勇往直前
**
掌握住我们的一切 决定把幸福 掌握在手里 看见手中握的就是你 所以我没理由 放弃
(DUMBDUMB)
Dumb Dumb di di di Dumb dumb di di di diDumb dumb di di di dumb x 2 你总是着样的叫我 害得我的脸红红 总以为我脑代空空 担心我走到半路会矢踪
Dumb Dumb di di di dumb x 2
Dumb dumb di di di diDumb dumb di di di dumb x 2我好想躺在你的肩膀想想 天空到底有几颗星在闪 我好想躺在你的胸口听你的心跳 卟通的跳动
你伸出那大大的手 说要一直牵着我 不让我跌倒出丑 答应我要永远保护我Dumb Dumb di di di Dumb dumb di di di diDumb dumb di di di dumb x 2
I know we had already been separated for almost 7 months however these feelings for you jusst doesnt seem to understand the word of " giving up "
There are so much things around me that kips remingding me of you...
This holiday make me realise something...
yea.. without you life can still be very fufilling with my own activities and passion.. However, it took alot to just fill a part of the hole that u left...
friends ask me... why do i eat so much
To fill up that hole??? I wonder.... today i come up with the answer... yes to fill the hole...
as I reluntanly wan to wake up today findin there is nothing to do... but to stone at home thinking of u.. the feeling is sooo " empty " all i can think of is buffets and steamboat... to stuff myself until i don feel comfortable in my stomach so my heart will feel less uncomfortable...
Stupid thinking.... but thats it...
Things will never be the same again... I understand..
I just hope i could wake up one day... and start not to love u in any sense from then onwards...
I will find freedom..
,11:25 AM
from a wise person
Someone told me this today
when a door of happiness is closed there will always be other doors open for u... but u tend to ponder too much and linger at that closed door and may not get to see that open doors for u... and somehow u may miss e chance as it will also close gradually...
so...
look around u....
search for that door of happiness...
don always be too sad over smth as there is always smth else for u...
,10:45 AM
TODAY IS A WTF DAY
Evrything jus went so wrong today... My dancing pants haven dry.. k nvm... i wear wrong shoe to dance.. damn lose can... walao difficult to dance la... n i think i twisted my ankle coz it look fatter than e one on the right... anyway i dance like shit today... simple steps i cannot execute .. n i do till i almos cry... face turn red la... kns.... was surprise sam actually praised me!!! wooo!! thanks!!!! u are dope lo ur reggae... k doubt she will see this post...
break time went to eat... then Kaiwen n Royston kip makin fun of my appettite n kip sayin im a male... thnks ar... i know im more manly than e both of u ... don neeed to be jealous... haahaha k joking la...
towards e end of the day towards practice i enjoy alot... bcoz they jokers do alot funny thigns and i laugh like duno wad... n forgot about e stress n jus enjoy dancing...
thn funny thing la... meet up with my ex's brother for supper... quite cool also... but i was damn pek cek coz i realise i lost my ic n ezlink... SHIT SHIT SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
anyway wad my bro say it quite.. i whine n cry i still cannot find... stile same thing... so jus let it be lo... haiz,.. wad to do...
k justin is damn funny la.. walaooo i laugh till cannot tak it... almos take things throw him liao... but then someone in tpde.. still royston e mouth is unbeatable la... hahahaha DOPE
and then shiow shi gave me a link to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YjO_VXHxsRw&NR=1 wah listen liao... i feel that my voice is damnnn low.... although ya truw its low... but now i feel that im e base... hahahha
and ya... someone vry fuuny also la.. .like children.,.. need to use lolipop to pacify.. somemore tell me cherrry flavor !!! LOL!!!!!!! so cute la...
then.. abit saddening... that hot kevin NS guy gt someone he thinks nt bad de seh.. i abit sian diao... but neh mind... still can disturb him... nt bad la... hahaha
i wonder... do i reali eat alot???????
Friday, April 11, 2008,10:38 AM
DANCE
Walao.. kns... and i tot dream girls was good coz we dance under no stress n enjoy it lo.. pple also come tell us its good... then seniors ask us about it.. then also nv tell us its shit until we perform shit for regatta training...
somehow i felt alot stress dancing and IHATEIT... i hate to feel that dancing is smth unhappy... dancing should be like eating... something that makes u feel fufilling, satisfying, happy and u wan more, expect more and look forward to the next one.
but somehow i jus feel e stress la. But i don wan to be just an empty promise and I don wan to give up. i still carry my believes and strive for the best, though im fucking lazy, i will push myself to be more hardworking.
Today is also e first time i got vry irritated with tpde. All the time for the last minute notice i try to understand but duno why today i got vry angry over it leh. PMS? maybe lorh. Then there is this thing I feel dont know right or wrong. Somehow there is obession that passion. I love dance but i dont dance like i have no life. I still have to work and support some stuffs, i have my family and friends too. Sometimes i reali wonder... if gt 10 trgs for a performance jus becoz i hav work or an impt date with family i cannot go for that training does it means that i dont respect the performance and i dont wan to perform as much jus becoz i cannot BEAR to make that sacrifies?? Well this holiday I did almost cancel stuff just to dance... such as gatherings, work (my money!!!!) and dinner with family. Dad even complaint that i dance till like nv go home but he adds on " why are still in e same size? "
Im nt posting this to shoot anything or anybody.. its jus a reflection and self arguement.
Well today whole day i gt vryyy angry i duno why leh... jus feeling angry since i woke up... then went to buy things to eat... i ate 2 pancakes... one choco n one peanut... one mango milk pudding YUM!!! big cup of fruit juice and chocos and rubbish la... OH!!! mushroom soup!!! today is junk food day... i so sad la... coz ytd after dance i jus went crazy n ate 3 piece kfc chicken... one whipp potato.. one n half fries... 2 regular coke... n some rice my mom's eating... then 2 hrs later i fall aslp... wake up at 9... 11 feel hungry... go cook... ate 2 bowl of rice... walao... dieting is si impossible now...
THEN TODAY.. after all e junk... i go meet stefff to chill... ate MAC... hahahahaha sinful ar... then i do mask... can feel e vibration on my skin.... is it bcoz sensitive or wad i duno la... don give me disaster can le... i vry happy coz stef likes my songs that i composed!!!! heehee
both of us are also bitching... so funny... but mostly talk about funny things la... don worry not u :D....
oh yah... then my ex's brother ask me out... so surprising...
tml gt training in the mrning lo... abit tired leh... k i shall end here... random....
Im vry happy that my official blog is done... thnks to darling beautrice!!!! she's so nice... love her leh... dont see her like quiet quiet one.. actuali.... heeheeeheee don tell u... psss : she eats alot
,1:21 AM
it's done!
all thanks to beautrice tay.
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About
Melissa Lin [Happylin]
Wanted to be Merkissa
Hair growing at 166cm
Weigh..shhhhhh too scary
Born in Venus grown up In Tampines.
I'm a Beautiful Star Pisces , and my Spaceship crash on earth on 21 feb 1990 .
Loves
Colors :Gold,Pink,Black,Grey,Purple Foods : Cakes&Cookies Movies : No Horror Idols : MELISSA THE GREAT
Dear Santa
Likes
Sexy lingerie
Triump corset
Caps
Dresses
Shoes
Bangles
Cosmetics
Bags
Ear rings
Necklaces
Food vouchers
NECKLACE WITH A SPOON AS THE PENDENT!!! Dislikes
Pink Roses
Soft toys
Figurines
Things that cannot use cannot wear cannot eat put there waste my space only
Dear Fairy Godmother
I wish for...
*Find soul in music
*Able to freestyle easily
*Strong vocal
*Express myself on stage
*Shine as a special individual
*Guitar!!!!!!
*Sweet food :D
*Spicy food :D
*SteamBoat
*Volleyball!!
*WORLD Tour!!!!!!!!!!!
*See wonders of the world with my own eyes!
*MUST VISIT ROME IN MY LIFETIME
EWWW!!!
*Being emo
*Stress
*Any injuries
*Overeating HAHA!!
*To feel that dancing is not a happy thing
*Pple to misunderstand me
*Cigarette