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Friday, December 26, 2008,2:44 AM
OMG its christmas!!!
my godness!! its christmas!!! its been a super long time since i blog.. its stagnant.. ok since its christmas i think i should reali blog..
been unhappy and happy these few days.. and reflected alot..
firstly about BGR.. i decided that i hv to move alrdy.. its goin to be 2009.. not issac not Mc.. well if we are fated to be.. thn jus let God shows the way.. but right now.. im jus very grateful for wad i have..
i don blame them for the tears i shed.. for the heart that was crash.. but i thank them for the smiles they brought.. the warmth they gave.. the lesson they taught..
There may be some regrets.. but i know i cant regret in life.. as there is no turning back.. there could only be " a lesson learn ".. if its meant to be.. somehow it will come.. it jus how u manage it..
I think setting ourselves free.. also gives freedom others.. in this way.. all parties wil be happy :D... i realii hope that they could understand.. im hv no motive!! and jus wana be friends :D good friends :D..
its abit sad that once broke up.. they no longer dote on me :(.. i wish that they will still dote on me.. as a friend.. i will feel much blissful :D hehehe..
There are still many guys out there.. but not now.. i guess
okay lets talk about friends..
IM SO DAMN FUCKING HAPPY SO SEE MY VOLLEYBALL GIRLS!!! its like OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahahahahah
yea.. although we didnt actuali played the game.. but i enjoy that day vry much.. so muc memories..
Im am bless with good friends around me.. jus that maybe coz of my heck care character i often didnt see ho wwell pple treat me.. coz i always think that its ok for pple to treat me as air.. but as long as i care for them im ok.. but it turn out to be.. its nt that im treated as air.. its jus the love is kept in the heart :D
christmas is a time to reali show how loved u are :D..
WHERRE SHOULD I GO ON 31st!!!!
hahahah
ok.. academically wise.. im nt so good la... HAHAHA.. nt smth i can push myself for.. evrybody has their own forte.. but academically im nt... but practically i guess i am.. so im nt vry worried for my future.. im jus worried i cant get a good husband.. LOL!! hahaahah k la.. sure will worried but nt so paranoid..
now.. my family..
this holiday enable me to spend more time with them... esp my mom coz she stop wrking for a short period of time.. its vry good to see her around although she can be super naggy and boil my blood at times... but my mom sacrifies soooooo much for me.. in this whole world.. no body can love me more than she did... becoz she is the one who can die for me.. since the day i was born.. evry mother risk their lives to bring their child to this world.. and it takes alot to brought them up... IM A VRY UNFILLIAR daughter.. becoz im super expressive.. therfore i always scold her and said nasty things when she did smth stupid.. but i nv put myself in her shoes.. and think e othre way round.. im so stupid... i jus like a princess.. taking things for granted.. but now i shall learn how to love and give more than i use to.. and
after watching NP dance concert danzation 2008.. it kinda affect me.. coz of the father n daughter scene.. they are soo familiar.. except the father die la.. CHOI!!!
he use to carry me into the room when he is still strong n young.. always take good care of me.. scared im hungry.. always bring good food for me.. and yet.. im so immature to scold him useless when he is depress..
he is nt a useless father.. becoz.. he brought me up.. n he tried his best to do wad he can for the family.. maybe the way he didnt do it greatly or as successfully as other fathers.. but he tried and put in effort.. so i stil love my father..
I became kinda family oriented.. duno why la.. ZAI NU.. hahahahaha
and my brother.. nth to say abt him.. HAHAHAHAHAHAH!! so bad.. no la.. the whole world knows how much i love him.. so there nth much to say..
:D
TOLERANCE ENDURANCE SELFCONTROL!! hahahahaha