I lost faith in love.. and feelings.. is all that i see and feel an illusion i have that will generally disappear?
Love.. wad is love??
lonely obsess vain emotional?
I strt to dread watching romance.. coz its so "fake" to me..
i rather watch fantasy or watch anime.. they seem more fun..
Love is a gimick... jus like marketing..
its works under the four words " xing gan qing yuan", willingly to let the marketing gimick cheat or nicely.. guide u along..
they know how to catch ur attention.. influence u... and make u fall for it..
however.. the content is not entirely true..
The ugliness of human nature ive seen n experience quite something..
such a disappointment..
though there are still those who worth out applause but yet.. how many can u count?
greed... uncertainty.. victory... cause human to lose their innocence..
How do u tell someone still loves u..
how do u know if its nt a joke??
how do u know.. its jus a habit.. used to it.. that they no longer know how to tell.. but think they are..
Love is everywhere... sounds so familiar
True love hard to find.. kinda ironic..
To love someone... there are so many qns...
what u wan... can live with?.. gt courage?.. have faith? but again.. its irony.. if u have faith.. there wont be so many qns...
so then again...
wads love?
Saturday, February 21, 2009,6:08 AM
Birthday
YEAY!! its my birthday and im damn happy...
alot of unexpected people greeted me... like reali random pple... and alot sentosians as well...
WALAO sherlyn n bliss... actuali forgot until i hint them... BO XIM!!!
damnn happy... but waiting for his greeting... wonder if he would continue ignoring me..
but YES!!!!!!!!!!! i got it in the mrning!! hahaha he sms me.. hehe
but i was too playful to say he would get a kiss for rmbring.. n he didnt reply.. guess it scares him away.. LOL!!
Studied at Andy house... but then the weather super hot ... n im quite slack.. hahahaha
but thanks people!! for the cakes!!! though its nan chi.. but its still very delicious becoz of its from you guys...
its damn funny when bliss scream e moment i walk into the kitchen.. LOL!!
satay was damn good...
and yea had strawberry cake at home! my birthday cake :D
I attack my bro with the cream but end up its all on me... HAHAH!!
anyway u can tell im vry tired.. so i shall stop here
Tuesday, February 17, 2009,8:59 AM
For my dearest friends :D
You walk me through the rain Your warm could ease my pain When my spirit is down, I begin to fall apart I knelt down and cry so hard, its getting harder to breathe I couldn't see clearly, this storm is defeating me
But I see a shadow and when I look up... With your hands, pull me up, and we run... Side by side, you never fails to hold me tight Together we move on, searching for the light.. Side by side
**Maybe there's someday when we need to part Maybe there's someday I will break down even harder We don't know what's ahead of us There might be too much to handle or too much to fear
But/And I will never be afraid Cause when I look back I know I could still see us smiling And I will never be afraid, no never no more Cause I know no matter what My friends will always be there
My friends will always be there Deep inside I know they care All the memories we share
Monday, February 16, 2009,2:07 AM
This is wad you call goddess
BOA!!!
MY GODDESS!!!!!!!!
REALLY THE DOPESS GIRL!!!!!!!!
EIEN ” Eternity “ - BoA Translation: I’m certain that my fingers were made for touching your cheek for touching your cheek I’m certain that the shining moon is there for me and you to look at it it was only for me and you to look at it whenever i felt down you were always there by my side you always smile for me but now you are gone from the deepest part of my hands my sadness pours out in large drops, MY LOVE in this town, Tonight I think I’m the one who is crying all the time Because you loved me I am who I am now the time that’s carried by the wind it brings back the eternity of that day Bye bye bye Why did you say bye bye why did you say bye bye At that time, about that song we always listen to it came on while we were standing at the farther corner and we shared our phones together and then suddenly you pull away and the phone comes out of my ear and I pretend to get mad our eyes eyes would meet suddenly our lips would press together you said that you will always protect me I try to reach up the navy blue sky I feel like my heart is about to explode Just hold me, one more time If I could have been honest with you This never would have happened When i wake up, everything will be a dream And then you will say bye bye bye why did you say bye bye why did you say bye bye I was looking destructed at the people on the street while walking with you, the roads with green trees you told me, make pasta for me next time and that you will always protect me… but from the deepest part of my hands my sadness pours out in large drops, MY LOVE in this town, Tonight I think I’m the one who is crying all the time Because you loved me I am who I am now the time that’s carried by the wind it brings back the eternity of that day I try to reach up the navy blue sky I feel like my heart is about to explode Just hold me, one more time If I could have been honest with you This never would have happened When i wake up, everything will be a dream And then you will say bye bye bye why did you say bye bye why did you say bye bye bye bye bye why did you say bye bye why did you say bye bye Romanji: Watashi no yubi wa kitto kimi no hoho ni sotto fureru tame dake ni atte fureru tame dake ni atte kagayaku tsuki wa kitto kimi to isshoni zutto miageru tame dake ni atte miageru tame daki ni attano kujikesou na toki ni itsumo tonari ni ite waratte kureta kimi wa mou inai nda poroporo te no hira kara koboreru kanashimi My Love konya kono machi de tabun watashi ga ichiban naiteiru kimi ni aisareta kara watashi wa watashi ni nareta toki wo hakobu kaze yo douka ano hi no eien wo kaeshite Bye Bye Bye Why did you say bye bye bye Why did you say bye bye bye Ano koro futari itsumo kiiteta kyoku ga futo machikado ni nagareteru iyafon katahou zutsu de kimi ga totsuzen tsuyoku hipparu kara ne chotto mimi kara hazurechatte watashi ga okoru to fuzakete fui ni kimi to me ga atte kuchibiru wo kasaneta zutto watashi wo mamoru tte itta noni Neibii buruu no sora sotto te wo nobashite miru harisakersou na mune mou ichido tada dakishimete ano toki sunao ni nareba konna koto ni naranakatta mezametara subete ga yume de atteyo soshite mata fuzakete Bye Bye Bye Why did you say bye bye bye Why did you say bye bye bye Michi iku hito wo bonyari miteita kimi to aruita puratanasu namiki kondo pasuta tsukutte tte rainenn ryokou shiyou tte zutto watashi wo mamoru tte itta noni poroporo te no hira kara koboreru kanashimi My Love konya kono machi de tabun watashi ga ichiban naiteiru kimi ni aisareta kara watashi wa watashi ni nareta toki wo hakobu kaze yo douka ano hi no eien wo Neibii buruu no sora sotto te wo nobashite miru harisakersou na mune mou ichido tada dakishimete ano toki sunao ni nareba konna koto ni naranakatta mezametara subete ga yume de atteyo soshite mata fuzakete Bye Bye Bye Why did you say bye bye bye Why did you say bye bye bye Bye Bye Bye Why did you say bye bye bye Why did you say bye bye bye
,2:02 AM
SHINEE!!!
OMG!! i love taemin!!!!!!!!
Sunday, February 15, 2009,9:56 PM
Birthday coming
these are wad i want n needed..
i lost my wallet.. so a wallet will be good..
GOLD or black colour :D
my ear phone spoil... n i dont reali like to bring e big big headphone out.. coz will damage my hair.. so yea.. hint hint.. (taken by v)
i would like to have the shinny legging.. gold colour or black from bugis street hv alrdy.. HAHAHA.. 12.90
Bikini... yellow or black... or gold.. hahahahahaah (taken by KV)
n... JUNSU PILLOW!!!!!!!! ( should be.. S liao)
Saturday, February 14, 2009,11:04 PM
Vday!!
WAKE UP VRY EARLY TO GO SCHOOL.. to actuali wan to study... but end up slack.. make up.. and eat magi mee with Png.. the results wasnt good.. but i pass.. so yea.. and I LOST MY WALLET!!!
I was rushing to go cheers to buy Bens&Jerry for sheila to cheer her up becoz she had been rather emo.. took my wallet in my hand and ran up... but then it was close.. damn shit.. i look at my watch..12!!! and they closes at 12.. so zhun meh!!!! KNS!!
thn i went to the toilet.. and as usual.. left my wallet on the silver tray.. n forgot to take it out!!! onli to realise like 30mins later?? when i was about to pay sherlyn the printing money... zzz still can play comp at library when my wallet is gone..
PEK CEK.. when im so broke.. i lost my wallet.. HENG ARH IC nt lost.. and HENG.. i bought my breakfast before i lost it.. HAHA.. thn i vry touch.. peiwen kip on consoling me.. and ZIYA IS SOOO SWEET U KNOE!! she gav me one dollar to take bus.. to tamp with them.. and folded a heart using the bus ticket n giv to me..
i teared in the bus.. coz i was vry bu gan xin with the lost..
Don bday was a vry peaceful one.. except e part he throw e cream at emily.. damn bad.. he didnt know who put in 3 nights effrot to make e card for him!!!
thn we played the drawing game using don present.. hahahhaa
nex station- mindscafe!!
Gbert came to fetch us.. n to my house to take my money!!! hahaha... i was happily watching dragon ball with my brother!! n was vry giddy as well.. thn DENNIS CALLED!! Gbert second round of fetching reach my house CARPARK~!! zzzzzz hahahaha
bo bian... i hav to giv up my 20yrs old anime.. SO DMAN NICE la... stil e same as it was.. DOPE!
mindscafe is damn fun.. we combine 2 games... and sabotage each other.. im getting better at taboo!!!! haiz..sian png wasnt there.. if nt.. it will be damnnnn fun with her around.. but it was still vry fun.. :D
the hand game is damnnn funny!!! it shows how retarded one can be.. N OMG!! dennis lips!!! LOL!! u guys should see how he draw a trumpet!! LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i laugh until im out of breath..
mine wasnt any better.. but ANDY CAN GUESS ITS A DOLPHIN!! HAHA!!
nx stop.. jasmine house... go collect car..
and we proceed to MARINA SQAURE..
DAMN IT LA>>. evrywhere also couple...
FULL HOUSE... n ON WAITING LIST... my suki sushi and my hotpot culture!!! end up eat wad.. .Seoul Garden................................... 29.40 on that.. -.-
but thn.. it was damn fun.. im with 4 cul students leh!!! n they perform their tepanyaki skills.. HAHAHAHA!!!
I MISS ANDY's cooking!!! BINTAN TRIP SURE HE COOK LIAO!!
during toilet break..i went to visit bliss.. she look like a little girl wrking in a restaurant.. aahahahaa
my aim was to eat 20 drumsticks.. i gav up on the 5th.. HAHA!! n eat aloot other food as well.. but i didnt think i got eat till 29.40 worth... hahhahaah
but the fun was worth it.. i forgot about my lost wallet.. hahahaha aiyah.. don care la.. if lost.. means lost liao.. if someone will giv it back to me.. it will come back..
after food.. we were soo damn FULL!!!!!!!!!!!
thn strted HTH.. askin eac other love's life.. hahahahaaha jasmine ask me alot weird qns.. and make me miss him soooo much la... but i know.. its a memory alrdy.. :D.. didnt see him for 11 months.. n counting..
somehow.. im afraid of getting into a relationship again.. as there are many factors to consider.. but then the other side of me thinks.. if these factors are factors.. then that guy should nt be the one.. coz he shuold be able to bring me out of these fears and assured me..
wellll.... wait lo..
Marine barrage is damn nicee!! oh ya.. GBERT and NAT was kinda stupid to nt join us for Seoul Garden and at TCC.. hahah they regreted too.. hahahaha!!
alot of couples walking here n there.. like a zoo..
and i jus observe.. alot shuai one lo!!!
hahahaha...
spend time singing and bitching...
on the way to another place... the guys were singing some racist songs.. DAMN FUNNY!!.. B******* and Sentosa..
mary had a little lamb - ___ had a little lamb his fleece as black as coal.. LOL!!
and end up go to this vry NON singapore place.. the rail track area... vry malaysian lo... feel sooo out of place... get a drink.. n went home...
2.30!!
vry tired!!!
Tuesday, February 10, 2009,10:21 PM
HOT GIRLSSSS
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LOOK AT THEIR FIGURE!!! NICE LOR... esp Park Ga Hee.. e one in white
I wan to dance!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I aim to be like Park gahee!!! aim la.. aim.. HAHAHAH!!
,9:55 AM
:)
I want a hot date on v day la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahaaha
watched BBF!! DAMN TOUCH!!!!!!!! omg.. how to find someone lidat......
one who go crazy over u... one who willing to chiong all way for u.. one who acts like an idiot for u.. one who doesnt care about anything but u..
I felt that im like jihoo.. lol.. k wadeva.. onli i understand..
i happy this way...
I hate it when pple trying to say " i scared i hurt u"
my immediate reply in mine is " FUCK U LA"
it like.. pls lo.. wadeva~
alrdy hurt means hurt liao.. where gt i scared i hurt u.. -.-!!!!!!!!!!!!
sometimes pple jus dont think much.. k forget it.. hahahaa im good :D
not saying about her... but jus being generally... coz i met too much of such case..
when pple trying to be considerate but actuali evryword they say is a needle to pple hrt in such situation.. it somehow will appear hypocritic evn if the person does not mean it.. and its like tryin to open a wound or force the person to face smth they don reali feel like facing..
To like someone and to like someone and live with him.. is different thing..
its getting clearer to myself for whom i want to live with..
AH!! my V day!!! hahahahaah
Jihoo and Joon pyo.. im always attracted to jihoo type becoz i find they are vry caring and brother-like.. but i know.. to live with.. its definitely joon pyo character.. one who know how to ride a roller-coaster with me.. than one who guide me how to ride a roller-coaster safely.. or make the rollercoaster a safer one for me..
although having a person like jihoo.. can tame my hot temperness and bringing gentleness into my world.. however.. i prefer to see gentle in a hidden way.. felt than to be seen.. brotherlike figure will be brother like... its different..
I felt that i cannot possibly change myself becoz of another one.. and i wont like the idea of changing or influence the person to become like me...
Giving myself more time and space to see and to understand.. will be a better choice to grow and to learn... which will generally make me a happier person in future :D.. and of coz.. make life easier for my guy :D
Monday, February 9, 2009,8:35 AM
HTM gathering
TODAY IS DAMN FUN!!!!!!!!!!!
H07 loves!!!!!!!!!!! musical chair is hilarious!!! don see sherlyn smaller size than me k.. she bump me till i drop on e ground.. i do not understand why Don's forfeit becomes mine... =.=.. i went up to dance.. so pai seh..... didnt feel comfortable.. stone a few times.. hahahaha... n e pics taken are HIDEOUS!!!!!!!
BBQ was fun!!! help out.. OTAH!!!!!! perspire so much pls!!!!!
hahaha oh ya.. somebody are getting more obvious on their progresss... hehee.. i vry automatically stop smsing them or talk to thm so much.. coz don wan to disturb..
on e way to sch.. actuali wanted to go beach alone since others going UNDERWATER WORLD.. end up didnt go.. i took e neww tram.. so cool open air.. n kinda big n high.. there was this salormoon girl taking shots.. she's cute..
LUGE.. i own again!!!!! champion!!! hahahaha on e chairlift.. sherlyn sheila n png don allow me to pull e thing up.. they scream like duno wad...
anyway im quite happi.. but the night was a blast!!!!!!!!! i guess i eat too much.. fat like duno wad... 2 week porridge liao.. hahahahaa
TUG O WAR!!! fun!!!!!!!!!!! yeay!!! H07 partially won :D
my finger bleed though.. play as though they killed my mom.. -.-!!!
KC so nt sporty... ask him go up like wan his life.. -.-
JIAN wei is soo damn cute..watching him "fly" while tryin hard to pull..CHERYL AS WEELLL she didnt reali budge.. so damn cool la..
anyway i think when it comes to play.. im vry wild n hao sheng.. i need someone to tame me.. harddddd to find...
KING!!!!!! RYUN KIAT IS THE MAN!!!!!!!!!!! hahahah
e moment he walk down to hold ziya's hand is reali OMG!!!!!!!! sweeet till max.. I ALSO WAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
n they hug... n he kiss her on her cheek!! AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! swweeeeett
n thn emily taught us a new game.. chubby bunny!!!!!!!!!! SO FUN!!! i didnt win la.. coz tio choke!! TOO MUCH MARSHMELLOW IN MY MOUTH!! 9?? OR 10?? LOL!!!!!!!! PNG SHOWED US HER POWER N WON CHAMPION.. 13!!!!!!! LOL!! big mouth~~
we sang alot song " its my life.. have a nice day " LOL!!
on e way we sang shalalala....zzzzzz
on e tram we sang nonsensical songs..!! so fun!!! lemon tree!!!!!!! cute tilllllllll
LOVE THEM LOTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
ITS BECOZ OF THEM... I FORGOT SADNESS... AND SMILE N LAUGH TILL I TIRED :D HAHAHA!!! LOVE my H07!!!!!!!!!
,8:33 AM
hiking
wanted to post this ytd but was toooooooooooo tired... hike 11 km.. 4 hrs plus!!! with an injured ankle.. soo tiring!!!!!!!!!!!!! but it was vry fun and funny... the western food is damn delicious!!! n i rot at home after that.. when im free then i edit..
Sunday, February 8, 2009,9:29 AM
To celebrate the joy of love.. for whom i tot was once reali pouring his love for me.. and for those who heal my wounds :D
Saturday, February 7, 2009,4:25 PM
suffocating
Been having breathing problems and heart burns.. Suffering.. but i know i can take it.. jus a litttle while... jus a little more.. evrything will be over :D..
All those dreams that had been haunting me will generally become nothing..
I wont cry in studio coz i miss tpde n dancing too much I wont get drunk and talk rubbish to hurt people I wont miss u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wont think how pathetic my love life is.. actuali nt pathetic lo.. HAHA!! I wont become wadeva and I wont behave wadeva ( all these are just dreams )
images are haunting.. they are kinda scary... but i know!! I CAN SURVIVE.. PLS GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO GROW STRONGER AND BECOME A BLESSING TO EVRYONE INSTEAD OF MAKING THEM SAD OR WADEVA..
I wan no heart burns !!!!!!!!! damn disgusting
life is like porcelin... to get stronger.. you have to get crash.. be remould.. and go through high heat enduring the ups n down in life.. and TADA!! a stronger me will be reborn :D
I don mind getting crash time n time again.. though e process is realli OUCH!!
but i know i will become stronger.. I will definately grow. and HOPEFULLY i wont collapse.. I can handle it!!!!
IS THAT ALL U GOT TO GET ME CRASH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!???!!!!!!!!
mus have Jan Di spirit!!
yes u can say Im Stupid.. but Im stupid in my way.. :D Stupid in this way.. thats how im gonna survive..
K lets talk about happy things now..
Went Nat house YTD... DAMN FUN!!!!!!!!! i woke up at the time the rest reached thuogh.. miss e lion dance again this yr.. STIL GT NEXT YEAR!!!!! hahaah!!
Fell down on the way there.. near my house bus stop.. kinda dramatic n vry funny.. because i was dressedup.. n wearing high heels..
I walked confidently and neglected the holes on the pavement.. and i jus landed on the ground... twisted my left ankle.. scratch my right knee and my palm.. =.=
but thn.. i kinda feel shiok about the injury.. LOL!.. its like evrytime im hving heartburns.. i might get injured.. n then e pain will be tranfered there.. a physical pain is still better.. :D
Played the drinking game.. and i was siao... because i ate ALOT.. like 3 plates of stuff before i play the game and drank 2 cups of coke too.. HAHA!! vry bloated...!!
and then there are 2 cute guys :D HAHA!!
one is realii cute.. i think evrybody knows who im talkin about.. but i heard his character aint good... but then!! i kana "saut dao" by him when he giv me the act cute face!! saying" i hv no idea " during the game... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH hahahaahah
the other one.. is funny cute.. i sabo him once... he made me drink like 3 times?? 2 cups each... THNKS AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I enjoy the HTHT sessions... reali bitch alot!!!!!!! i think i changed... hahahaa becoming more n more bitchy... -.-!!!! Like reali talk bad about pple behind their back alrdy.. wadeva la hurh... i happi can liao.. but i kinda feel sad.. why am i lidat..
BUT THN i enjoy myself.. THNKS NAT!!!!!
Thursday, February 5, 2009,6:46 AM
i hate today somehow
YAY!!!!!!!!! finish all presentation.. was super nervous.. coz i didnt really prepare myself... and i slpt at 4... heng qns was quit eeasy to handle for me..
played at the comp lab.. like siao char bor.. quite funny la... lol..
no mood to celebrate..... which i plan to...
FUCK LA!!!!!!!!!! play viwawa till quarel with my father coz he kip nagging and direct me on how to play.. while i play.. disturb my playing tactic thn ask me do wrong moves... keep losing!!! end up i shout at him for being vry noisy.. he treat it as real one.. and FLARE UP..
seriously think he is getting old.. getting cuter lo... small things also angry.. and reali angry...
haiz... FUCK LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
k.. i understand how u feel.. i know its my fault as a daughter to even shout at u... so near... if i were in ur shoes.. i sure slap... u're a gd father becoz u tolerated that urge to slap me...
u have been stressed up by the fuck up life of urs as u hv elaborated..
JUST MY LUCK
n he said " i don think u can cool me down "
in addition with.. i know wads real n wads not...
TOTALLY spoil my WHOLE day...
Im super sad.. vry sad ultra sad... until my face is reali > -.-
U know wad i hate most.. to cause any of my family members to be angry or sad..
ouch.. ouch ouch.......
i don even hv e strength to smile..
sorry dad..
wonder how long will this peace out.. ur last sentence was damn scary
" don make me turn into a mad man!!!"
it reali shows me how much u have endure for this family this period of time..
sorry i couldnt be a shoulder.. instead i became a burden..
sorry im too tired to be ur support n i jus need to collapse somehow..
sorry for my insensibility..
sorry for all these sorries which means nothing...
Im still nt grown up..
to sum up...
both of us got over smth kinda stupid.. that the emotion that took over at that second has develop into smth big which involves alot of other thinkings..
you should be- mummy, me, money and life..
me- friends, relationship, studies, family..
this las 2 months is reali a hit.. vry tedious n tiring.. i survived so far.. struggled hard n perservere... and now.. all e tolerance.. broke down.. always wanted to be the strong one.. n hate to " break down".. its tough but i know i can do it.. keep evolving!!! hahahaahaa
sorry papa... i seems to neglect the reason why u wanted to talk so much n be involve in my game.. because u jus want us to have fun tgt... sorry for spoiling that.. T.T
Wednesday, February 4, 2009,6:40 AM
19!!!!!!!!!!! my last teen
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im turning soon and i didnt reali realise... in like less than 20 days.... AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahahaha
I do have some presents i hope to receive though LOL!!!!!
some skin product... or revlon new foundation..
jacket... or beauty books :DDD hahahaha
k la random..
im jus tryin to digress from my presentation..
,6:20 AM
Accounting
DAMN EMO TODAY... MAX liao....
alot things are swirling in my mind... firstly.. ebiz.... but heng.. i think can pass.. provided bullshiting is allow...
tot i lost a friend becoz of a stupid decision i made by being honest with my feelings... but he said nv.. so nv lo...
friends realllli matter alot to me... like REALI
wanted to gain some encouragement from him.. end up.. dont hv... for tml PPT.. and i super tired n sick.. need some motivation..
end up.. THNK YOU SEAN!!!!!!!!! hahaha he brighten up my day man... thnks for ur encouragements ..so damn funny...
and i tot 20/40 is fail... i tot i fail my accounting course wrk.. HOPFULLY i pass class participation la.. pray...
Sean " who say 20/40 is fail.. i go wack that person" LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IM the one!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAHAHAHAH!!!! retarded till... feel so much better.. i can survive tml liao...
NESCAFE for "esctasy " power is needed though...
THOUGH.. had some crap with the PPT.. but hopefully things will go well tml :D
LAST LAP.. lets race!!! before study week!!!!
*** HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! gt wad i wan today :D.. happi!!! Arigato na!!!!*** so came back to edit my post.. gambate!
Monday, February 2, 2009,10:18 PM
NEW SONG
Currently.. addicted to this song... DAMN NICE!!!!!!!!!!! from
BOYS BEFORE FLOWERS
FUCKING MEANINGFUL
but just dont like the idea of cry cry cry.. wad heart break ar.. damn emo can.. but its still a nice song.. No wonder e name is " I'm stupid " coz that person who wrote this song is quite stupid.. and damn pessimitic la..
but i listen n like this song.. does it mean im stupid as well ?? hahhahaa NAH... jus find it a good song written.. elaborative.. i still prefer happy song..
Love is.. by DBSK.. DAMN NICE.. Love is all i need.. also.. these 2 are my insomnia lullaby..
niga neomu pogosip’eun nalen neomu kyeondigi himdeul naleneun neoreul saranghanda ipgae maemdola honja dasi tto CRYING FOR YOU honja dasi tto MISSING FOR YOU Baby! I love you! I’m waiting for you!
neoui harue nan eoptgettji tto kieokjoch’a eoptgettjiman neoman paraman pogoittneun nan honja ch’ueokeul mandeulgo isseo
niga neomu saenggaknaneun nalen kaseum sirigo seulp’eun naleneun niga pogosip’ta ipgae maemdola honja dasi tto CRYING FOR YOU honja dasi tto MISSING FOR YOU Baby! I love you! I’m waiting for you!
Bye, bye, never say goodbye ireohke chapji mothajiman I need you amu maldo mothae I want you paraedo dasi paraedo
niga neomu pogosip’eun nalen neomu kyeondigi himdeul naleneun neoreul saranghanda ipgae maemdola honja dasi tto CRYING FOR YOU
niga neomu saenggaknaneun nalen kaseum sirigo seulp’eun naleneun niga pogosip’ta ipgae maemdola honja dasi tto CRYING FOR YOU honja dasi tto MISSING FOR YOU Baby! I love you! I’m waiting for you!
TRANSLATION
I’m really, very foolish I know of no one other than you you’re looking at someone else yet you have no idea of my feelings like this
I won’t be in your days I won’t be in the memories either, however only you, I looked only at you and the tears keep coming
As i watch you walking past, I’m still happy even yet you still don’t know my heart I should stop this and go
I really want to see the day I’m withstanding the pain each day “I love you” is playing on my lips Alone once again, crying for you alone once again, missing for you Baby, I love you, I’m wiating for you
I won’t be in your days I won’t be remembered either, however only you, I looked only at you I’m making memories alone
Loving you is like having a beautiful wound I look at your pretty smile also but I cannot laugh with you
I’m thinking about you so much everyday my heart is hurting in all these sad days ‘I want to see you’ is playing on my lips alone once again, crying for you alone once again, missing for you Baby, i’m waiting for you, I love you
bye bye, never say goodbye even though I cannot hold you like this I need you, I cannot say anything more, I want you I keep on hoping too, I’ll keep hoping….
I really want to see the day I’m withstanding the pain each day “I love you” is playing on my lips Alone once again, crying for you
I’m thinking about you so much everyday my heart is hurting in all these sad days ‘I want to see you’ is playing on my lips alone once again, crying for you alone once again, missing for you Baby, i’m waiting for you, I love you
,9:48 PM
Insomnia
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i cannot believe i actuali suffer from insomnia... i guess its due to sch wrk.. i've been sleeping unevenly... hahha wad a word..
then always MSN till late or watch vids till 3plus 4 then slp... saut..
Went to see doctor coz its quite serious liao... despite exercising before i slp.. making myself extra tired.. i still cant slp... roll for 2 hours plus..
He said i am young for sleeping pills so only gave me drowsy medicine such as pain killer for my headache.. but thn i still dun understand why got antibiotic.. hahahaha
JIA LAT.. tml gt test.. how to study~
k anyway... im abit sad leh... wondering if i've made e wrong choice being honest with my feelings nt.. since to cause some troubles again... haiz.. as usual.. how to let them knw that i don care lehz...
although claims to be nt affecting friendship.. but somehow i can feel its no longer e same lo.. how to show that i onli wan FRIENDSHIP leh??? :(
haiz... stupid lor.. if i swallow my implusion better..
love comes n go easily.. so i reali doesnt matter.. Im contented to dream about a relationship i wanted.. or watch drama to get influence..im happy alrdy..but friends that can click.. are hard to come by... i really matter!!!
AH!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~
do i seem like i am a scheming person?? I very scared pple get e wrong idea of me becoz of my " happenings " I reali hv no motive laaaaaaaaaaaa.. k think too much..
anyway i completely KO also.. lose till... bo way gong.. one simple remark from her can make him FLY to her side... hahahahaa.. I nth to say.. but vry cute ar.. its so real of someone who is in love to do smth lidat.. hahahaha
she is also quite stupid to doubt his feelings too.. so yah... im OUT of the picture already... i guesss.. i was nv inside before la.. hahahahaaha
they say wan to read my blog... MA LA WU KO LENG!!!!!!!!! sure wont give de lo... i blog abt them leh.. like now??? hahahahahhaa!!
but if they can find it.. then fate lo.. coz i duno how to make it private.. -.-
im a blog noob pls.. evrything is friends help me do de lo..
I NAN DE DO TUTORIAL LEH.. coz someone ask me try.. KNS overslpt!!! waste my effort!!!!!.. but shun bian la.. gt reason see doctor liao... SUPER reluctant to see lo.. coz i think doctor no use one... hahahaahhaa its all in the mind..
coz if u know u sick.. slp n eat healthy la.. giv u 100 medicine u don take care of yrself also no use..
WU LIN DA DAO COMES TO AN END!!! hei jiao got first!!!!! hahahaha and MANIAC THIRD!! love these 2 group la.. dope shit.. haiz... cant dance for concert till now still sad.. who ask me.. need money.. hv to wrk.. hahaahaha... but oh well.. will go back to dance for sure...
IM FREAKIN TRIED.. thnks to the medication!!!!! WAH!!!!!!!!!!!! my ebiz going to dang diao???????!!! I DON WAN!! I STILL HAVEN DO MY PPT SCRIPT PLS!!!!!!!!! Wonderwoman MLPX needs to evolve...
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About
Melissa Lin [Happylin]
Wanted to be Merkissa
Hair growing at 166cm
Weigh..shhhhhh too scary
Born in Venus grown up In Tampines.
I'm a Beautiful Star Pisces , and my Spaceship crash on earth on 21 feb 1990 .
Loves
Colors :Gold,Pink,Black,Grey,Purple Foods : Cakes&Cookies Movies : No Horror Idols : MELISSA THE GREAT
Dear Santa
Likes
Sexy lingerie
Triump corset
Caps
Dresses
Shoes
Bangles
Cosmetics
Bags
Ear rings
Necklaces
Food vouchers
NECKLACE WITH A SPOON AS THE PENDENT!!! Dislikes
Pink Roses
Soft toys
Figurines
Things that cannot use cannot wear cannot eat put there waste my space only
Dear Fairy Godmother
I wish for...
*Find soul in music
*Able to freestyle easily
*Strong vocal
*Express myself on stage
*Shine as a special individual
*Guitar!!!!!!
*Sweet food :D
*Spicy food :D
*SteamBoat
*Volleyball!!
*WORLD Tour!!!!!!!!!!!
*See wonders of the world with my own eyes!
*MUST VISIT ROME IN MY LIFETIME
EWWW!!!
*Being emo
*Stress
*Any injuries
*Overeating HAHA!!
*To feel that dancing is not a happy thing
*Pple to misunderstand me
*Cigarette