I think i jus need to scold myself till i feel so damn down its time for me to wake up..




you are so damn useless.. only know how to live e life of a pig.. slp n eat.. thn day dream... unserious about ur sch wrk... don wan to study alrdy is it??

where is your aspiration to study in UNI..

where is your motivation to fight for the best?

where is your nv say die spirit??

wasting ur life away... concentrate on something more worthwhile la.. walao.. u don have enough time alrdy still slp slp slp or slack...

can you jus buck up?? pull up ur socks......

now its nt e time to dwell over unhappy pass or think about rs.. its over.. long over... so wad u miss him... don let it get into ur way...

faster do ur wrk...get it done nicely.. so u can hv more time... to go and WRK and earn money.. thn u can buyy the things u wan... attend classes u wan...

there are more things to look forward to in life ya know.. dont SLACK it off.. becoz u jus wan it ur way... coz u are tired...

NONONONO!!!!!!! cannot let tiredness get into ur way..


MUST CHIONG CHIONG CHIONG!!!!!! test ur limit mah........

COME ON LA... stop being a loser and behave as if evryone owe u a living lo..

reflect n think actuali it all lies in u... becoz u bhv like a loser.. u appear like one...

have more determination la.. and cheer up leh.. wheres ur smile.. wheres ur energy??

theres so many things that can happen.. nth is absolute..

BE URSELF!! BRING It back!!


YEAY!!

finally... after shopping for like 2 or 3 weeks.. i saw the ring that i like and a necklace that is very unique.. BUT THEN... i think im a idiot to spend that amount for it when i can buy cheaper and " younger" lookin ones...

but thn... SPENT ALRDY

i bought it from isetan.. from BLINK BLINK..

I wad told that there is onli one piece... so YEAY!! im the onli one who have it..

the ring is 25.90.. nt say very ex la..




the necklace is 49.90... very nice right... artisy... hahaha but then.. smth is missing frm e necklace.. i duno wad.. like.. too plain..

a small red rose on top will be nice??




Been kinda "weak" in my mindset... it aint good..

Give up easily and been very pessimistic...

SP concert was done very nicely... i got blown away by the modern pieces and I enjoyed their funk style alot...

I told myself i gotta train hard.. but i did nth... walao..

anyway.. on the train pang yang words hit me...

" can see u are those vry pessimistic"

all e while ive been tryin hard to potray to pple that im a strong and optimistic girl.. yet this hit me... am i so unhappy that its so obvious on my face..

I will pull my self back on track i promise...


its been a long time since i was this sick...

i think its food poisoning... one hour of torture in e toilet.. vomitting from the muoth and the ass...

visited e toilet mor ethan 10 times after tat 1 hour....


felt so numb on my limbs but i continue to work... and tell myself i can take it.. and i did :D... heehee...


i told myself... i have to set a purpose each day.. and have to do it... if nt i will be wastin mylife away...

i attended lecture and tutorial today.. though fall aslp during lecture.. vry guilty.. hahahaha


* would u love someone who is not suitable for you ? "

i ask my friend this qns today...

unlike poles attract and like poles repels...

how true is this???

I kip thinkin of my ex.. and that fling* hahahaha...

many good memories for the first..

but nt reali for the second.. felt being used..

I come to realise how much he actuali loves me but i was nt sensitive enuf to it..

however its all the end~

I didnt give a second thought whn my friend ask me.. what if he ask u for a patch..

"I will run to him no matter where he is.."

LOL!!!!!

but again.. how true is this.. will i reali do that?

the reason we broke up is becos we are nt suitable..

will a patch up be redundant?

I duno...

I WANT TO SMILE AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


watching " bu liang xiao hua " its funyy.. and damn sweet...

pan wei bo.. is reali e type of guys that can melt one's heart...

caring.. smart.. determine.. charming... talented..

as i watch i reali felt love.. coz its vry sweet la..

but.. im so afraid of "love" right now.. thus evrytime i get out of a "show" i will jus lock my heart up.. whoever dare to touch it or tries to open it.. shall DIE!!

hahahahaha kidding...

i jus find tat.. somehow.. it doesnt belong to me... but i stil wan to stay optimistic and thinks that one dayyyyyyyyyy... i will find my happiness and bliss..

but.. haiz.. been crasheddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd till...................

i wan to lose hope..

but i know i cant...

Daddy doesnt reali allow me to have a boyfriend.. from e conversation we had las night.. i can tell..........................

love.. is reali a weird thing... it can make other pple sooooo happy..

yet.. make me felt like a fool.. n soo damn hurtful........ and even pple around me to be sad...

im still young la.. 18.. going 19 MY GOD!! my las teen... in 3 months time..

slowly lo.. i dun think things will reali las long..enuf at this age..

dont wan to waste my "life" crying anymore...

i think my heart cannot take all e heartburns alrdy...

but then!!! hahhahaha i still want to watch those happy love drama series to feel their happiness and laugh idiotically infront of my computer and be in my own world... hahahhaa


i hope the hole my heart will heal before i turn old.. don wan to be a nun... hahahahaha!! k wadeva...

Im tired from crying too much.. my eyes super tired.. shall stop here..


hm... well.. dono wad to say... as usual...

I successfully protray myself like a bitch.. like big time...

emphasize i club alot.. which i onli went 5 times in my life..

bitching about pple.. which i dont reali do...

felt a change in me..

like how come...

Is it a way for revenge for e failure of relationship i had?? or am I truely such a bitch...


AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


its jus..


FUCK UP LA!


stupid cough sweet!!!!!

Melissa Lin
[Happylin]
Wanted to be Merkissa
Hair growing at 166cm
Weigh..shhhhhh too scary
Born in Venus grown up In Tampines. I'm a Beautiful Star Pisces , and my Spaceship crash on earth on 21 feb 1990
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Colors :Gold,Pink,Black,Grey,Purple
Foods : Cakes&Cookies
Movies : No Horror
Idols : MELISSA THE GREAT

Dear Santa

Likes
Sexy lingerie
Triump corset
Caps
Dresses
Shoes
Bangles
Cosmetics
Bags
Ear rings
Necklaces
Food vouchers
NECKLACE WITH A SPOON AS THE PENDENT!!!

Dislikes
Pink Roses
Soft toys
Figurines
Things that cannot use cannot wear cannot eat put there waste my space only

Dear Fairy Godmother

I wish for...

*Find soul in music
*Able to freestyle easily
*Strong vocal
*Express myself on stage
*Shine as a special individual
*Guitar!!!!!!
*Sweet food :D
*Spicy food :D
*SteamBoat
*Volleyball!!
*WORLD Tour!!!!!!!!!!!
*See wonders of the world with my own eyes!
*MUST VISIT ROME IN MY LIFETIME

EWWW!!!

*Being emo
*Stress
*Any injuries
*Overeating HAHA!!
*To feel that dancing is not a happy thing
*Pple to misunderstand me
*Cigarette

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