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Sunday, October 19, 2008,8:20 AM
love
suddenly... i start to open my heart to this topic again... kinda not use to it la..
coz all e while when someone tells me abt me.. i will jus " ASK ME FOR WAD? "
I refuse to touch my wounds.. damn scared..
but i watched a show today which taught me.. " to overcome is to face it "
k i will face it... but i will not try it.. as in.. i will talk abt it.. but i wont let myself get into a relationship..
now i look into alot things when in a boyfriend.. i will not " try " a relationship again...
unlesss he makes me feel that.. I should be with him.. i hv to be..
my friend ask me wad i look for hmm.. alot materialistic things la..
- tall
- good looking
- rich
- smart
- healthy
- loyal
- caring
- dote on me
- being real
of coz the list goes on... but this type of guys.. HARD TO FIND.. got la.. drama lo
i missed my exs..
i reali do la..
i still love e first bf.. coz.. its jus lidat lo.. but then i ve been crashed by him many times ever since we broke up...
he showed me how much he doesnt wan me anymore... how much he hopes that i would hate him.. how much we could jus be normal friends.. sometimes he even give me e feeling... lets be strangers..
becoz of all these.. i cant bring myself to like him anymore..
the second one bastard me la.. hahahaha but i still miss him.. he lied to me many times i guess.. but i still care for him... he seems vry lost.. or lonely..
if he sees this he will " dont think so highly of urself as if u know alot "
hahaha but thats how i feel la.. i feel like lending him a shoulder.. let jus lean against n say nth.. but.. i know.. he doesnt reali wan to see me also..
I been hurt badly.. but thn... Im still young.. i still many chances.. i jus wan to be alone for e time being... busy with many things... evryday do wad i like.. and do not have to make time or arrangement becoz of the other one...
came across this song.. its dam nice.. reali is DON TELL ME ABOUT LOVE!!! this sentence reali says wad im feelin man... thats why recently those guys who tell me they like me or wan to woo me... my first reaction " CRAP LA! " k la.. its damn rude.. but i reali feel vry irritated n annoyed.. when pple can jus say like easily.. wad do they look for in a relationship.. i reali wonder..
放飞心情
太多爱不明不白
我还在分手的那一天原地徘徊
太多事不明不白
不明白怎么笑着走出来
不要对我再说爱
你回来可是过去再也回不来
不要对我再说爱
我还在秋千上摇摆
太多人不明不白
我不想重新开始后
还想着原来
太多人不必等待
我不能给你确定的未来
不要对我再说爱
你回来可是过去回不来
不要对我再说爱
我还在秋千上来回摇摆
不要对我再说爱
我坦白一直忘不了原来
不要对我再说爱
我害怕我们再受到伤害
不要对我再说爱
你回来可是过去回不来
不要对我再说爱
就让我一个人静静摇摆
一段爱从不明白到明白
我的眼泪才慢慢流出来
~~end~~
i wan to keep all those memories i have.. put it in my lifestory.. making it more fufiling and abundance of emotions... even more meaningful..
Hello. I'm Melissa Lin. I'm always 18 years old. I love apparels, but i hate