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Saturday, April 12, 2008,11:49 PM
Thinking about u
I know we had already been separated for almost 7 months however these feelings for you jusst doesnt seem to understand the word of " giving up "
There are so much things around me that kips remingding me of you...
This holiday make me realise something...
yea.. without you life can still be very fufilling with my own activities and passion.. However, it took alot to just fill a part of the hole that u left...
friends ask me... why do i eat so much
To fill up that hole??? I wonder.... today i come up with the answer... yes to fill the hole...
as I reluntanly wan to wake up today findin there is nothing to do... but to stone at home thinking of u.. the feeling is sooo " empty " all i can think of is buffets and steamboat... to stuff myself until i don feel comfortable in my stomach so my heart will feel less uncomfortable...
Stupid thinking.... but thats it...
Things will never be the same again... I understand..
I just hope i could wake up one day... and start not to love u in any sense from then onwards...
I will find freedom..