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Friday, April 11, 2008,10:38 AM
DANCE
Walao.. kns... and i tot dream girls was good coz we dance under no stress n enjoy it lo.. pple also come tell us its good... then seniors ask us about it.. then also nv tell us its shit until we perform shit for regatta training...
somehow i felt alot stress dancing and IHATEIT... i hate to feel that dancing is smth unhappy... dancing should be like eating... something that makes u feel fufilling, satisfying, happy and u wan more, expect more and look forward to the next one.
but somehow i jus feel e stress la. But i don wan to be just an empty promise and I don wan to give up. i still carry my believes and strive for the best, though im fucking lazy, i will push myself to be more hardworking.
Today is also e first time i got vry irritated with tpde. All the time for the last minute notice i try to understand but duno why today i got vry angry over it leh. PMS? maybe lorh. Then there is this thing I feel dont know right or wrong. Somehow there is obession that passion. I love dance but i dont dance like i have no life. I still have to work and support some stuffs, i have my family and friends too. Sometimes i reali wonder... if gt 10 trgs for a performance jus becoz i hav work or an impt date with family i cannot go for that training does it means that i dont respect the performance and i dont wan to perform as much jus becoz i cannot BEAR to make that sacrifies?? Well this holiday I did almost cancel stuff just to dance... such as gatherings, work (my money!!!!) and dinner with family. Dad even complaint that i dance till like nv go home but he adds on " why are still in e same size? "
Im nt posting this to shoot anything or anybody.. its jus a reflection and self arguement.
Well today whole day i gt vryyy angry i duno why leh... jus feeling angry since i woke up...
then went to buy things to eat... i ate 2 pancakes... one choco n one peanut... one mango milk pudding YUM!!! big cup of fruit juice and chocos and rubbish la... OH!!! mushroom soup!!! today is junk food day... i so sad la... coz ytd after dance i jus went crazy n ate 3 piece kfc chicken... one whipp potato.. one n half fries... 2 regular coke... n some rice my mom's eating... then 2 hrs later i fall aslp... wake up at 9... 11 feel hungry... go cook... ate 2 bowl of rice... walao... dieting is si impossible now...
THEN TODAY.. after all e junk... i go meet stefff to chill... ate MAC... hahahahaha sinful ar...
then i do mask... can feel e vibration on my skin.... is it bcoz sensitive or wad i duno la... don give me disaster can le... i vry happy coz stef likes my songs that i composed!!!! heehee
both of us are also bitching... so funny... but mostly talk about funny things la... don worry not u :D....
oh yah... then my ex's brother ask me out... so surprising...
tml gt training in the mrning lo... abit tired leh... k i shall end here... random....
Im vry happy that my official blog is done... thnks to darling beautrice!!!! she's so nice...
love her leh... dont see her like quiet quiet one.. actuali.... heeheeeheee don tell u...
psss : she eats alot
Hello. I'm Melissa Lin. I'm always 18 years old. I love apparels, but i hate